Just a post to make things public, and wanting to declare it to myself infront of the world. To be honest, I do feel very embarrassed to share this on Facebook etc, where people know who I am.
I do hold a lot of anxiety, as I have tried to have support buddies, but they got lazy and Ended up bailing out... Or when I do something or even just post about exercise my best mate thinks I am making a personal attack on her because I am "capable"? ... Don't get me wrong, lovely person however she makes her self out to be very mentally disabled and self sabotages. For example, I teamed up with a very successful life coaching/counselling company, paid them to help her out, with a weekend face to face course and told them to just let her think she won it, as she will kill me if she found out what I did. She said she really wanted to do it but came up with 100 problems why she can't and told them to pass the prize on.
Sorry, that's a little rant, but something I really wanted to get off my chest, because I don't want her to know what I did. To keep the secret, I can't tell anyone... But she can take up the "prize" when she is upto it, it is always there.
So I am sick of people saying "that's awesome! I wish I could do that but <insert excuse>" ... Because in some way, shape or form, I believe everyone can do it, and hearing the disguised negativity and other peoples excuses is bringing me down.
So here, and in a hopefully supportive environment, I am holding myself accountable to finish the 10K trainer! I timed it so week 15 (graduating week) of the trainer, I will be running the community 10k run in September. I want to successfully run the entire course this year. No half-tried attempts like the previous years I have done it... And I will post up progress every week along the way!
This week I have done week one, and am feeling motivated. Just have to not burn out that motivation and keep it up.