This is my first time being open to people I don't know, but I figured it would help this time around. I've fallen off my weight loss goals countless of times, and I can usually chalk it up to my depression, bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder. Many people don't understand mental illness, but it is something so many people struggle with every day, myself included. These past few months have been bad. Usually I have a few bad months at a time, but I can sometimes see the light at the end of the tunnel. This time, though, it's completely dark at the other end, which is terrifying. I was slowly relapsing into my depression and all of the bad, addictive habits that come along with it. I gave up on myself. So here I am again, trying to start this journey and not giving up this time. Using running as an outlet for all of my emotions has been one of the healthiest habits I've learned, I just hope I can stick with it this time. While I know the fight is long and hard, I know I can't give up.