Hi there!
I just joined in hopes of becoming motivated to take better care of my health.
I've dealt with depression and anxiety a good portion of my life. I stopped taking meds 6 years ago and was on them for 12 years. You have to learn what triggers your anxiety and learn to overcome it and control it. It takes time but trust me, being off meds is so worth it.
As for paranoia of people judging you by how you look, SAME HERE. It sucks!!! But after so many years of failed diets and exercise plans I FINALLY have been on track more than ever. A big part of that is because I try really hard to not care what others think. I'm doing this for me, so I can be healthy and live a long life so I can see my baby girl grow.
Just take it one day at a time, avoid doing things that keep your mind open to negativity. Remain occupied, listen to music, watch tv, read a book. I find that it helps being occupied to not let my mind wander and become anxious.
Since starting my new lifestyle change last week my anxiety levels have decreased drastically, my marriage is even benefiting from my newfound happiness. They're not kidding when they say endorphins are the best antidepressant.
I wish you so much luck!!!
You can do this!!!