Hello, everyone. I am a 21-year-old woman recently graduated from college. For the past three months, I have been jobless, broke, and poised to lose my apartment as the days go by. I've been feeling like a financial and emotional burden on my family and generally a huge disappointment to myself.
It seems like within the last two years, I have increasingly become incredibly unmotivated and self deprecating. My future dreams and aspirations have all become dimmer and more distant as time goes by. After a while, I had just about given up on everything. My room, which I'd go days without leaving, became a mess, my social life went to the gutter, my self care and hygiene had all but disappeared, and I gained a significant amount of weight in the process. My lifestyle had dipped so drastically that the clothes that fit me only two months ago no longer fit me.
It was only until a couple of weeks ago that I realized I was going through a form of moderately severe depression. And then it hit me. If I didn't make a change then and there, things were only going to get worse for me, and I was going to completely lose control of myself and my life. At that moment, I decided to move forward. I've since organized my room, gotten out the apartment more often, interacted with friends and family, and this past weekend, I got a new job.
As I'm slowly piecing my life back together, I wish to take control of one other aspect of it: my health. I have never been through the process of losing weight, at least not to any significant level, and the past few months have led to the highest weight amount I've ever been. This isn't how I want to live out the prime years of my life. And so, I am deciding to make a change in that area as well.
My first day of C25K will be tomorrow. My aim isn't to be a size zero, but just a weight and condition where I can be more active, healthy, and feel more comfortable with myself. As an extra incentive, I want to be able to run a 5k in October for my city's local cancer run.
I know this isn't going to be easy, but I am ready to take on the challenge and to keep moving forward. Thank you for reading. Wish me luck, and best of luck to all others starting or continuing this journey as well. We can do it
Onward.